August 1-8, 2002
Institutions, idolatry, and
disillusionment. We tend to idolize at least some of our
institutions, all of which are constructs, and at any given time
some are worth keeping, some not. Most are human creations meant to
help us deal with particular issues or problems. For secular people
none transcend their impermanence. Even Christians should realize
that only a few are destined to last throughout the current span of
human history.
What got me thinking along these lines is some
reading I have been doing about the death of privacy. While we would
all agree that the death knell seems to be tolling for our personal
privacy, some writers have been pointing out that it also tolls for
our
institutions as well as for you and me.
There is an old aphorism, "familiarity breeds
contempt", implying that to get too close to most things takes away
the mystery and leads to disillusionment or indifference. There are
some things we just don't need to know about other people. However,
as institutional privacy is also lost, we come to learn things about
our institutions that shakes some, or at times, all of our
confidence in them. Part of this problem is related to our former
idolatry; we held them too high on a pedestal in the first place.
Part of it is related to our need to believe in things and they
looked like good candidates. However, as we expose the warts and
other faults of our institutions, laying their secrets bare while
laying waste to their privacy, we tend to go overboard when we pull
them off their pedestal. Those that could do little wrong, now are
beyond contempt.
There are good reasons for this. You can't get
disillusioned about anything you didn't first have illusions about
in the first place. It is part and parcel of the definitions. We
tend to see the illusions surrounding the institution, rather than
the reality, which privacy helped to maintain. Naked institutions,
like naked women, hold no illusions.
Some see this as good. No illusions means more
accountability, however sometimes it is impossible to meet the
resulting demands, since our former illusions still inhabit our
current requirements. As no woman no matter how beautiful, can long
maintain the scrutiny of constant nakedness, no institution can
either. We will find faults. We will pick and poke and complain and
grow contemptuous. We will expect too much and see too little.
So, maybe privacy is necessary, at least to a
certain degree, for institutions, as it is for us. For without
mystery, we are only left with the cold glare of a too intense
examination, under which nothing bears up well and most things are
destroyed.
Some things we do need to know, but some things we
just don't. Knowing what is what is the rub.
Loss of equilibrium.
My wife has a irregular recurring condition in her inner ear where
she loses her equilibrium and gets nauseous and finds even sitting
up difficult. It usually passes with the help of a little Meclazine
but since it hit her today, it started me thinking about the
significance of equilibrium in our lives, both physically, as in my
wife's case, and emotionally, which really undergirds my previous
discussions about chaos.
When we lose our
equilibrium we have problems navigating, whether it is the next 20
feet or the social situation currently demanding our attention. I
think we all can understand the need for balance when moving about
physically, but we also need a sense of balance when moving about
socially. One definition of equilibrium in the American Heritage
Dictionary is "Mental or emotional balance; poise." Poise. That's
it, the ability to maintain our composure in adverse circumstances
or when under stress. Something we all need in order to successfully
navigate the social landscape.
I, along with
most geeks and nerds, will admit to a lack of poise. It has been
woefully deficient over my lifetime, though not for lack of desire
or trying. However, my poise has grown in recent years, partially
from natural maturity and partially from a concerted effort combined
with the grace of God. I just don't lose my composure as easily as I
used to.
So, when all of you non-geeks and
non-nerds out there interact with us, remember that our apparent
congenital lack of poise is not necessarily our choice or from a
lack of our efforts. Give us the benefit of the doubt. Have a good
day and be nice to a geek or nerd today or sometime this week.
Chaos revisited.
Chaos exerted itself again yesterday, but this time technological
chaos. My new rebuilt server won't install its OS properly and my
current project is fighting me on every turn. Previously that would
have put me into a "blue funk" (state of panic or great fear, or a
state of dejection or depression.). Now with my greater acceptance
of chaos in my life I just put the problems aside and continued on,
gerry rigging a temporary solution. This manageable chaos thing has
its good side inside the technological geek world too. Now if I can
just get that little voice to stop yelling, "You've got to fix it;
you've got to fix it." and be a little more quiet and reasonable, I
will be even more productive
LOTR. The Lord of the Rings DVD was released
today and I picked up my reserved copy. We will probably be
inundated over the next few weeks with LOTR promotions and
advertisements, which will somewhat diminish its uniqueness by its
ubiquity. No matter. With great enjoyment I watched the movie
again last night. I also watched some of the extras on the DVD,
including a preview of the upcoming release of The Two Towers
in December.
The story has lost none of
its power and the production held up well to my repeated
backtracking and reviewing. The producer for the next release
wondered how the world would receive the next installment, since
they had leaped such lavish praise on the first effort. Barrie
Osborne argued that The Two Towers has such a larger scope,
sense of grandeur, and technical accomplishments compare to the
Fellowship release, that he is afraid they will get into a can
you top that problem. All I can say is that it is a nice problem
to have.
As George Lucas works through the
final installment of his Star Wars saga, it becomes obvious how
significant Tolkien's achievement was. While Lucas had a great
idea, his universe lacks the emotional depth and consistency of
Tolkien. This is not to disparage Lucas or any other creative
effort. Instead I am trying to give Tolkien his due. It has taken
the movies of Peter Jackson for me to see the incredible depth of
Tolkien's story telling. As a writer myself, I am challenged to
the core by his completeness and the consistency of his
characters. While they grow with each event, they remain
consistently themselves, completely recognizable even when
different. I would say that there is an utter realness to them
that makes the almost unbelievable believable.
Geeks. The
common image of geeks is of an intelligent and technically
competent, though socially backward individual. I think I have
hit upon the source of the geek problem. Since I am partially a
geek (really a nerd, which is a geek with a semblance of a life)
I offer this insight to other geeks (an nerds) out there.
I think the problem is the uncontrollability and
irrationality of most social situations, especially when related
to family, or in the case of male-female relationship, potential
family. Blaise Pascal, a
17th century French and Christian philosopher, once said, "The
heart has its reasons, of which reason knows nothing." I would
add that families also have their reasons and sometimes reason
has nothing to do with it.
You seek
geeks (and nerds to a lesser degree) flower in technological
arenas where they can extend a sense of control over the
environment around them. Early geeks waxed poetic about their
first computer program that got the big hulking mainframe to do
what they said and to do it EXACTLY as instructed. If for some
reason it didn't work, there was a logical reason, either a
mistake by the geek (fixable) or due to a bug in the system
(something you can work around). Everything was reducible to an
understandable set of parameters. People and social
relationships are not.
People and
relationships don't respond consistently or reliably from a
programmable frame of reference. As living systems, they exhibit
serious chaotic tendencies that surpass the most complex chaos
theories imaginable. They have limited predictability and as
result, what worked last time might not work this time or may
even produce a seriously negative result. As a result, people
and relationships require you be comfortable with chaos, to
accept a very large standard deviation. They require you to lose
a great deal of your control over the situations. It is so much
easer to retreat back to the worlds you understand and, more
importantly, can manage, the worlds of technology.
Part of the growth in my life and what keeps me
from real geekdom, is my growing acceptance of a manageable
level of chaos in my life. Notice I said manageable. Recent
brain studies have noted that men and women's brains are
radically different. Men have a much more difficult time
processing multiple inputs and being comfortable with apparent
informational chaos. So, part of some men's tendency to geekdom
is biological, and to some extent all men have some geeky
characteristics. Hey, tools of all sorts, which most men love,
are means of exerting control, of reducing variables, of helping
us to focus on the solvable or controllable within the chaos
before us.
This growth in my life was
brought home to me this weekend by a family problem (don't we
all have them?). Like the man that I am I attempted to exert a
little control over the chaos. Notice I said "a little". Gone
are the days when I try to absolutely control the situations
around me. I am now leaving that to God, since it is way beyond,
light millennia beyond my abilities. Now I just try to bring a
little order to my small area of chaos and I do it with a much
larger tolerance for failure, or to state it positively and
somewhat geekily, with an acceptance of a larger standard
deviation than previously allowed.
That
brings me to America, which in some ways is the land of the
geeks. How much of the disconnect between us and the rest of the
world, both Europe and Asia, can be traced to our incipient
geekiness? I wonder.
Weekends. I am not sure
how weekends are viewed in the rest of the world, but here in
the U.S. they are very important. Many people gear their lives
around the weekend, considering most of the workweek to be
what you sacrifice to get to the weekend. Some people who work
a four day, 40 hour week (10 hour days), really place see
their three day weekends as weekly mini-vacations.
We have all sorts of little sayings that remind
us of the weekend's significance, and one of the most
important is TGIF, which used to mean "thank God it's Friday"
but has been secularized to "thank goodness it's Friday"
though I am I not sure who goodness is. I chuckle at the way
secularists are forced into personifications that are
essentially pagan or animistic in an effort to avoid God,
primarily the Judeo-Christian God, but that is a discussion
for another time.
Weekends are seen as
recovery time, chances for most of us to recapture some of
what we feel we have lost in the drain and strain of the
workaday world. I will admit to falling into this pattern from
time to time, but I am essentially against it. One of the
essentials of being self-employed, at least for me, is that
work is as you do it and it can be done any time you have the
time or inclination. While it is true that client deadlines
make demands, you are fully capable of taking off when needed
and working late or early to get the job done. What this means
in a practical sense is that I don't really have weekends in
the traditional sense. There is many a Saturday and Sunday I
will work for 4-8 hours each day.
I am
not unique, since in our service oriented society, many people
have to work on Saturday and Sunday. While the rest of us are
shopping or going to the ballpark or movies or library or
museum, someone has to be at those places working so we can be
doing our "weekend" stuff.
Since the
weekend is such a given in our society, it is interesting to
note how many weekend "have-nots" we seem to have. I wonder
what percentage of the population they make up? Do they feel
left out or second class because they don't get traditional
weekends? Who knows? One thing I do know, weekends or at least
Sundays off, are a gift to all of us in the West from our
Judeo-Christian heritage, which enforced the concept of a
Sabbath rest. While it doesn't mean the same thing any more,
the idea of free time in which society doesn't make any
demands on me has stuck around and grown with every passing
year. Did we gain anything of significance when we jettisoned
the Sabbath for the secular idol of free time or have we lost
something important? It is a difficult question to answer,
since even most Christians have bought into the idea of free
time and abandoned the idea of the Sabbath. However, it is an
important question, which needs addressing.
Heat. We are
having a very hot summer. Things have been scorching since the
beginning of July with only a few days of respite. Since I work
inside, I am in air-conditioned luxury, and the only time I notice
the problem is when I go out to get the mail or have to a make
sure my dog gets his necessities. For all you who live in the
western United States, who say mid 90's is not so bad, just
remember we have the temperature with 30-90% humidity. Right now
it is 99° F / 37° C with only 32% humidity, so the Heat Index is
only 102° F / 39° C. I have seen it as high as 115° this summer.
Even so, I am often amazed at how easy I have it,
sitting here working away in 74° comfort, with cold drinks and
snacks at my beck and call. Historically speaking, and as an
Ancient History graduate of UMBC (University of Maryland Baltimore
County) I tend to contextualize everything historically, this
comfort I live in is a recent innovation. It comes from my ability
to isolate myself from the effects of my natural surroundings,
especially as relating to heat. For most of man's existence we
could only control the cold around us. We did that by dressing
warmly or by building a fire, then a few centuries ago fueling a
stove, and in recent years, turning on the furnace, but we have
always been able to to mitigate the cold. However, through all
that time we were at the mercy of the heat. We looked for shade,
to get out of the direct sunlight and maybe we went into caves or
into the basement of buildings built of stone, or moved to our
homes near the sea or other water in the summer in an effort to
get cooler. But it is only in the last 100 years that we have been
able to really cool ourselves with air conditioning and it is only
in the last 40 (one generation) that it has become common in most
homes.
We now have air conditioning down
to fine art, even having portable personal coolers that can blow
cool air right where you are. Fewer and fewer cars are sold
without air conditioning any more and some have digital climate
controls so that you dial up your favorite temperature, even in
your car. Not too hot, not too cold, but just right. We like being
in control of our lives.
I think this
modern sense of being able to control our environment down to the
exact degree we desire helps explain our reaction to September
11th. We are a people who are used to exerting so much control
over the things that distress us, and we had no control over what
happened that day. I think that is among the reasons why we honor
the people of United flight 93 and their efforts. They tried to
take control of their situation. They did not succeed, but they
made the attempt and in doing so they probably prevented a worse
disaster.
I have been thinking a lot on
this idea of control lately, so don't be surprised to see it
filter throughout my writing in the days and weeks to come.
Smokescreens and clarity.
In the debate over the outcome of the Florida
electoral process that put President Bush into office, Al Gore and
the Democrats have always argued that the common people were behind
them in the contest and Bush and the Republicans were the party of
power, wealth, and manipulation. Ann Coulter, the best selling
author of
Slander: Liberal Lies About the American Right, has shown that
argument to propagandic fabrication in her
recent column.
Both candidates created
election recount funds to support their efforts. The interesting
thing is that Al Gore's primary contributions came from just 38
individuals, who contributed $2.1 million of the fund's $3.3 million
total. My own research turned up an article by
Holly Bailey for opensecrets.org, in which she noted
All told, roughly 80 percent of the 1,258 donors
to the vice president’s recount fund gave less than $200, but only
$56,216 of the fund’s $3.3 million in contributions came from
those small donations. A Center analysis shows that 281 people
contributed $200 or more to the Gore fund. Only 38 donors gave
$20,000 or more, accounting for $2.1 million of the total.
George Bush, on the other hand, refused any
donation above $5,000 and still raised $13.8 million. I could not
find compilations on total givers for Bush, but I did check three
states in the opensecrets.org
database: Maryland (a small eastern state that primarily
Democratic and went for Gore), Alabama (a southern state that went
for Bush), and California (the largest state that went for Gore and
is currently Democratic). The smallest gift posted was $500 and I
don't know if that was the minimum reported or the minimum received,
so my figures only cover gifts above $500 since that is the limit of
my information. The average gifts for the three states were $1673,
$1,613, and $1,784 with a total of 415 givers. Note the closely
grouped averages per state. As a composite the three states averaged
to $1739. Using that figure as a workable number it means George
Bush had almost 8,000 givers as compared to Al Gore's 1,258 or 6.4
times the number of supporters.
It appears
that Democratic claims made at the time were somewhat disingenuous.
Apparently President Bush had dramatically wider support than Al
Gore did, who primarily depended on a small number of well-heeled
special interests. See Ann Coulter's
article for more information about some of those 'common
people'.
As facts come to light after the
rhetoric of the events has slipped into memory, it is sad to see how
much of that rhetoric turns out to be mere propaganda without
substance or truth. This appears to be a favorite tactic of the post
50's Democratic party, especially during the Clinton era and the
time since. When examined, the populist, common man image of the
Democrats is only a myth, window dressing for campaign slogans and
voting pushes. As a wise man once said, "Follow the money." However,
you may not like what you see when you get there.